Peace in the face of death - Tuesday November 28, 2006

Dear God, my heavenly Father...

I need You right now.. Give me strength and peace of mind. Help me get through this. Just when things were beginning to get better and I was finally getting over with the loss of my mother, this happens.

God, I don't know why these things happened to me or why I have to go through it, all I can do is trust in You and hold onto Your hand.

Although I don't understand why this is happening in my life right now, I believe that all this is a part of my destiny and who You've called me to be, God. I just pray that one day You will show me and I will know why. Until then, I just rest in You.

You know everything, You know the number of the very hair upon my head, You know the count of my days, You know when I will die, You knew me even before I was convinced in my mother's womb.

God, You knew when my dad would die, You knew that last night would be the last night of his life here on earth. I was never close to him or anything but still he was my father, my dad. I can only trust that You have him in Your arms right now.

I know he made many bad choices in his early life, which he regretted, I've come to see that through some of the very few conversations I had with him.

I know that he loved me and I love him, I was bitter with him before and didn't want to forgive him but You've changed me and showed me that I needed to forgive him which I did.

I know that he knew about You, and yet I don't know if he has ever really asked Jesus into his heart and believed that He died for his sins. I have to trust that You have him in Your arms right now, Father.

Thank You for all of my friends, my sisters and brothers who were with me today in class to speak into my life, thank You for the Lydells- they've been a big, big part of my life within the last 2 years.

I pray that You will give me strength and courage, help me to know what to do- my sister and brother, give me the words to speak into their lives, they don't have friends like I do, who are close to them like my friends are to me.

My best days are ahead of me, I believe that, God, and... You've taught me that it is indeed well with my soul.

Your daugther,
Emily Jane

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, with my soul.

Posted 11/28/2006 at 9:4 PM