Lately, I've been going through some issues, some frustrations... God has been teaching me to have patience and be self-controlled but it's so hard and sometimes I just want to give it all up.
One of the frustrations is the fact I'm always wanting/wishing for that or this thing to happen right now just because I want it, but I know now isn't the right time and it isn't God's timing yet.
God, I just thank You for Jon, with whom I was able to have a great conversation two nights ago. I told him about my problems and frustrations.
I feel so much better now that I told him, it was awkward at first though.
He shared many wise things that he learned in his life, one thing I learned is that I enjoy where I am at right now, and not to worry about future, and I don't have to act like I'm several years older either. I don't have to try and do 5 things at once, just do it one thing at a time.
I love him so much, to me he is my dear papa Mordecai from the book of Esther.
I have to just enjoy where I am at right now. Because next year I will never have this season again, I will never be 18 again.
Matthew 6:25-34
25 Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
28 So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31 Therefore do not worry, saying,What shall we eat? or What shall we drink? or What shall we wear? 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Posted 7/15/2006 at 2:50 PM
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